SOME DUMB BITCH POEMS
from me, a dumb little bitch
come here, baby
& beat the cold right out of me
i want you to love me like a missile
you’ve stepped all over my continent
in the best way
i am hereby chucking
my mildewed pinecone of a personality
straight at your face
this time it will be better
i am telling you that up front
God keeps trying to button me up
it’s sickening
my social appetites have been
ripped from their little hinges
i may gasp, or even fret
it is all part of the process
here i am, writing down my feelings
so prettily
& for what?
i may as well bark into
a crowd of ballroom guests
for all the good it will do
my dehydrated self-image
& the thing is
i don't even really want to be here
this just happens to be where the lake is
i didn’t lose the plot
i just walked away from it
to look at something else
unprepared to face the horror
of my own success
who keeps letting me
hard-drive myself into the world?
i won't be pushed around by my desires
like some kind of roustabout
i refuse to let a beautiful car crash
ruin my favorite songs
if anything, i'll do it myself
i would like to become a saint
but secretly
or else just go apeshit
i’ll stand when it feels right to stand
that’s just the way i live my life
everyone needs to shut up & wander off my ship
my shoulders are heavy
with the weight of both my good jackets
looking this physical…
i’m practically doing you a favor
if you expect me to care
about so-&-so’s birthday
well, you shouldn’t
i am keeping myself hydrated
but only because i want to
i’ve got that good breed of satisfactions
i'm letting you know in advance
that i'm going to be spiteful
please don't yell
i am a cat in a cheeky flower
i can wear anything & be right about it
wouldn’t it be funny
if it turned out i’d been vulnerable
& wishing for some sweet little candies
all this time?
now that you mention it
i suppose i do want some attention right now
time to create a masterful work of art